all drugged out.

So I have a dependency for drugs. But, two things: The drugs are not the illicit kind, nor they have the potential for illicity; The dependency is coerced, mandated therefore not some form of addiction. Nevertheless, it is still correct to say that I, for now at least, depend on those life-preserving pebbles in white, purple, what have you. 

My drug list reads like this:

• glimepirice (Getryl) 2 mg, before breakfast
• atorvastatin calcium (Avamax) 10 mg, 7pm
• insulin (Lantus), 16 units/shot, 7pm
• vitamin b complexes, after breakfast
• multivitamins, after breakfast
• bitter gourd food supplement, 10 min before each meal

also:

• virgin coconut oil, 1 tbsp after each meal
• young coconut juice daily

I initially worried about my liver (what with all that chemicals) but an ultrasound and some lab exam revealed that it is as clean as my mother's backyard. It's a good thing I have never been drawn to alcohol even if I try. 


The only side-effect I have noticed so far, if you can call it that, is that every trip to the toilet has become - for lack of a more precise yet palatable term - an adventure. But I'd have that any day if it means controlling the disease.


It has been 3 weeks since I was served the drug menu above and so far so good. I have become less lethargic, less depressive and most importantly less scared of what's going on under my skin. And the doctor said that when my sugar level becomes stable in the normal range, we would weed out the drugs one by one. And I'm clinging to that hope.